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Hell or High Water

Thus far all field research has proved I am immortal. Well, at least more difficult to kill than anticipated. The side effects of the Benlysta lasted quite a bit longer than anticipated. The psychological impact was a surprise for all involved, luckily I’m doing better now. Through some act of god my teachers allowed me to finish my school work over winter break [well one JUST got finished]. In fact, upon receiving my email explaining the situation they had a group meeting and figured out what needed to be done in order for me to graduate on time and finish out the semester.  I realize I am incredibly lucky/blessed to have teachers who are so willing to go up to bat for me. Not a single one asked for a shred of evidence, they took me at my word. This is absolutely amazing considering the nature of my situation and how damn weird it is. Thanks to them I was able to keep my internship and am almost done with my student teaching. This is not to say there haven’t been issues.

For instance:

  • Right now I am having hip and shoulder issues and doubled up on my Celebrex.
  • I can’t feel my hands and feet intermittently due to peripheral neuropathy.
  • Steroid shots.
  • My rheumatologist wants me to seek treatment for my hands [who has time for that?]
  • I’m still getting headaches even though I just had my Botox treatment.
  • Fevers.
  • Intermittently needing my cane.

Despite this laundry list of grossness, I need to focus on my goals. My husband and I are buying a house [we move in 3 weeks, I have packed nothing], I graduate in a just over a month, and I am fielding multiple job offers. These are all things I had at one point or another seen as impossible. These are the things I strive for, this is what beating RA looks like. I know I will never be who I was before I was sick, just like I know there is no cure. My definition of beating RA has been altered, I once thought that meant a cure. I now know that beating RA is living your damn life.

You Did WHAT?!?!

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Dear friends, something terrible has happened, let me explain.

Today I received a call from the infusion clinic I go to informing me that they accidentally gave me the wrong infusion. That’s right THE WRONG CHEMO ENTIRELY. They informed me that I received a round of a high dose Lupus drug called Benlysta. My doctor then told me I couldn’t receive my actual RA infusion for a month. I am already in survival mode so this is quite the disaster. The doctor told me in her 10 years she had never seen this happen, the RN at the IV center said never in her 11 years, and finally the hospital told me a switch like this has literally NEVER occurred. Lucky me. The Benlysta they game me has given me some pretty gross nausea, fever, chills, and headache, luckily that seems to be the extent of it [EDIT: it was not, there was more crap]. I am still livid with the hospital for making such a preventable mistake. For christ sake it passed through 3 checkpoints and no one caught it. I am pissed off that things are about to go sideways and there isn’t a damn thing I can do about it. Moral of the story, I am literally the unluckiest patient in Oklahoma.

Tis But a Scratch

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So I recently drove down to Texas to see my rheumatologist for a checkup. It was a bit discouraging to say the least. Right off the bat she told me I looked a little worse for the wear between my dark under eye circles and super sexy hobble. It would appear that the stress of my current course load combined with life has made for one hell of a flare. She gently suggested I take some time off of school to try and get my health back on track. I informed her that as someone in the 6th year of a bachelor’s I was going to graduate this May even if it killed me. I told her I just need to make it 7 more weeks, then off to student teaching. We did find that I am developing some hip problems on the right side. She is concerned about the potential of a labral tear developing due to the amount of stiffness and clicking. To me it almost feels like something is stuck in my hip socket, sort of like my joint has a small marble or some sandpaper in it. The rheumatologist said that we may need to look at treating it if it doesn’t improve in the next few months. She didn’t go into what treating it would entail, honestly I think we need to backburner the issue for now. The largest issue in my world right now is the crippling exhaustion. I’m back to sleeping 12 hours and feeling like I have only heard rumors of sleep. It is possible that this is tied to finally being off of my prednisone or me discontinuing my thyroid treatment [due to accidentally being over-medicated]. The current plan is to drag myself through this semester and meet with my rheumatologist in December.

GOOD NEWS [because we need some]: We figured out what those terrible side pains are! It was caused by the intercostal muscles on the right side spasming. We are not exactly sure as to what caused them initially, but an extremely talented massage therapist has been able to get them under control. More or less they now appear to be gone! I REPEAT GONE!

My friends and family have been really encouraging despite all of the current weirdness. They are seriously the best and have helped me stay afloat this long ❤

Hormones Gone Wild

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Today I met with a hormone specialist due to a suggestion from my mother. She told me she had low thyroid and it was likely genetic and urged me to pay a visit to her doctor, good call mom. After some blood tests and thyroid tests it was determined that I have incredibly low thyroid and the metabolism of an elderly sloth. This explains why I can’t seem to lose weight no matter what I do and why I have such bad fatigue even when my fibromyalgia is under control. I start taking adrenal support supplements, iodine treatments, and thyroid medication this next week and anticipate positive change. They told me I may feel better immediately or it could take several months, I am hoping for the former. They also told me my difficult periods and fibrous breast tissue is related to most of my hormones being out of whack and even explain my nausea and vomiting! As a result of this information I am thinking I will postpone my endoscopy for a few months and see if this helps the nausea. Something that was interesting was that my blood results mimicked those of someone with Hashimoto’s which is an autoimmune thyroid disease. I say mimicked because the doctor felt the high inflammation and white count were results of the RA/RD and sjogren’s. So that was interesting, he wants to keep an eye on it to ensure I do not actually have Hashimoto’s. In short I’m very glad I listened to my mother and look forward to feeling more like a functional person.

Bed Rest: Week 2

8flkNgqThis week I got my splint removed and got to see my foot! The incisions are significantly larger than I anticipated but are healing nicely. They removed half my stitches yesterday and will remove the remaining ones in 2 weeks. The doctor was impressed with my lack of pain meds [I’ve been off them for a week now] along with my limited range of motion. Apparently my toe wiggle is pretty impressive, it would appear they thought that wouldn’t happen for another week or so. Despite being a fall risk they went ahead and put me in a boot rather than a cast so I could shower more easily. I’m trying to adjust to having a giant boot on my leg while sleeping, not to mention how freaking heavy it is. My fantastic husband wins all the awards for putting up with me and taking care of me.

Muscle atrophy, what is it? This past week we have learned that my calf has turned into a gelatinous blob. I expected some atrophy in my leg but not so severe or quickly. I am less than halfway through my recovery so building the muscle back up is going to be an interesting adventure. I won’t be walking for 3 more weeks so I suspect this will get much worse before it gets better.

The storm systems that came through kicked my untreated RA/RD into high gear and caused a system failure resulting in a random couch nap on christmas. I am so very excited to start my IV in 2 weeks.

I am officially becoming stir crazy and feel like a shut in. I did get some excellent coloring books, a dinosaur building kit, and some books to help distract me.

Battle Report

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So I met with my rheumatologist today and learned several things; my RA/RD is fully active again, I have Sjogren’s syndrome [not a surprise], joint damage in my hands and feet, and my Fibromyalgia is fully active. Obviously most of these things are less than ideal, however we have a course of action. I am a fan of practicing reckless optimism, so let us explore! I will be changing my infusions from my IV Orencia to IV Actemra. We will be taking advantage of me not being allowed to have my IV for 8 weeks due to surgery for me to transition over to my new biologic. For those who are not in the know Actemra is an IL-6 inhibitor which works with a part of the immune system no other drug currently addresses. In addition to this I have had extremely dry eyes and mouth for months and finally asked about it, I was told I had sjogren’s syndrome which my doctor had several medical solutions to help with symptoms. We decided to just take care of the imminent RA issue for now and to explore these options at a later date. At present it appears the joints in both my hands and feet are finally showing signs of irreversible deterioration however we had been aware that we were headed toward that for some time, we had just hoped we could stave it off until I was a bit older. She strongly encouraged my foot operation due to the fact that they are re-aligning the bone, shaving the bunion, and evaluating the deterioration of the joint capsule. My foot operation is scheduled for December 14th and I am to be off my feet for 4-6 weeks. I only have the option of 3-4 weeks so we will be hoping for the best. My husband, younger brother, and close friends will be helping me not lose my mind I also have adult coloring books, movies, and Fallout 4 to help distract me. Due to my history with pain medication I will be attempting to go off of it as soon as possible. They want me on Oxycodone and Percocet for almost a month, we are aiming for less than 2 weeks.

BELSOMRA UPDATE:

DO NOT ACCIDENTALLY DISCONTINUE, I did this due to a refill error on my part, this caused me to not sleep for close to a week. Prior to getting it back into my system I experienced mild withdrawal symptoms that made me a grouch. After 3 days back on my regular sleep schedule, all is well with Belsomra and my world.

Remember: Power, wisdom, courage

PRC: Let the tapers begin

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why do we grarSo I have completed 2 OFFICIAL days of PRC programing and let me tell y’all what, it’s exhausting. I’m fairly sure that I could actually fall asleep standing up prior to us doing Tai Chi today. The program is rigorous and exhausting but so far it’s been worth it. The people I’ve met and the support they’ve offered even in the last couple of days has just been incredible. If I get nothing else out of this [which I highly doubt] the support and relationships alone will have been worth it. The physical therapy [PT] program is unlike any other that I have attended in that it addresses your body’s issues head to toe instead of focusing on one particular area. I like the idea of it by and large but also woke up feeling it in a very real way this morning so we will see what it accomplishes. Occupational therapy [OT] is interesting to attend as an adult [I went when I was very young],  So far in OT we have covered self-care and moderation and why they are critical to us leading happy, healthy lives [more on that later]. In other news today my care team and I discussed what steps we would begin to take towards reducing the medications I am currently on. It was decided to start with Tramadol as they want me off it the most and I am taking a fair amount of it. They also want to take me off of Vicodin, Tizanidine, and Amitriptyline. I begin the tapering off process tonight and the plan is to be off it completely by next week, I will report back with results as the program continues.

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