It’s a concerning feeling, knowing that the ships going to go down and not being able to stop it in any way. Occasionally I will have what I refer to as a “mega-flare”. It brews like a storm starting a couple days out. I try to rest, sleep, eat well, exercise, whatever it is that I think will stave it off. Sometimes that works and all is well in the world, however when it doesn’t… my god. Now when I say mega-flare I am talking about both my rheumatoid disease and fibromyalgia flaring up with the occasional bonus of migraines. Well folks, I am on the verge of such a flare now. Symptoms of the elusive mega-flare involve: swelling [Joints, soft tissue, everything], pain, joint cracking, nausea, migraines, fever, exhaustion [not just fatigue], fever, inability to sleep, irritability, digestive weirdness, stress, anxiety, muscle spasms, and a profound sense of dread.
Now I am not posting this to complain or seek pity I’m posting this as someone who is on the downhill slide but found something to slow her slide. Folks, while I feel like this is the end of the world my amazing PRC friends have helped me keep my head above water with check ins and encouragement. My support system [PRC, friends, family, love of my life, etc…] plays a huge role in my survival of this. In the past I tended to close myself away when mega-flares were on the horizon as I didn’t want to worry those around me but time and experience have taught me that I need my people. It is with this newfound power and support that I choose to continue.
To anyone who feels like their head is barely above water, it’s okay. Seek support from those around you, should that not be enough find others like yourself. I promise you it will help you weather this storm.