May I start today off by saying “GRAAAAAAAHHHH…” this is directed towards my frustration at beginning to feel more fatigued than I have in a good while along with my solo pain management not going swell. Excuse this sorry excuse for a post, I’m running on empty today. I am both very nervous and excited for Mayo PRC and am very hopeful that it will be able to help me. I’m frustrated due to my inability to do a million things at once and having to pace myself even more than usual. I’ve met with my faculty advisor and am now set to graduate spring of 2017 slow and steady wins the race I suppose… My advisor looked me dead in the eyes and told me not to take more classes than I could handle. Now the Determined all-or-nothing part of me said 15 hours would be a good choice, my fabulous advisor admired my can-do attitude but informed me that if I was going full-time again I was to take 12-13 hours max. I both love and hate how easily she sees my wish to power through and my physical limitations. On the grade front I’ve somehow managed to keep straight A’s [It’s only 2 classes so it’s not a huge deal] but my GPA will get the boost it’s been desperately needing. So there’s hope that when I’m full time next fall that things will go a little better.
Here is an accurate depiction of my life via waking up. At this point every morning goes something like this:
Determined Me [DM]: You’re alarms going off get up.
*attempts sitting up*
Fibro Me[FM]: I feel like death, maybe I’ll call in..
FM: But really, I’m no-….
FM: I might throw up or cry
DM: Do both or get moving
*gets ready for work*