The last month has been a little [lot] rough RA/Fibro wise. I had to be taken to the ER twice in 3 weeks [in 2 states] the combined trips resulting in 2 Benedril, 2 Morphine, 1 Torridol, 1 Ativan, 1 steroid shot, and an allergic reaction. I find this to be an unacceptable way to live my life, being in pain to the point of throwing up is rarely a good sign. Tomorrow I will be meeting with my Rheumatologist and Neurologist to discuss options with them though there aren’t many ways this could go. The most likely option seems to be being put back on Methotrexate, which I cannot express my hatred of enough. It made me so nauseous all the time. I am so very terrified that they will put me back on this drug that I’ve had a tough time sleeping for the last couple nights. More than anything I don’t want my boyfriend to have to worry about me/ see me in bad shape. I am actually kind of hoping this is Fibromyalgia related then we can adjust that medication instead of the MTX. I will update after my appointments tomorrow.