There comes a point in many an individuals life when they realize that they are dissatisfied with the course their life. has taken When said individual also suffers from depression then mixed with the added stress of chronic illness the results can be disastrous. This past semester has been just that, there were [and still are] days that I can’t get out of bed either from the RA or depression or both. What’s worse is I didn’t realize I was depressed at first I just thought everything sucked more than normal. After not sleeping for a few days I was really tweaked out of my mind and ended up at the health center, they gave me sleeping medication which helped lot at first. After a couple days my depression worsened to the point where I seriously didn’t/couldn’t do anything. My boyfriend didn’t realize what was going on but somehow magically was super supportive and helpful [as always]. I continued to take the Ambien [and still am] and it slowly started getting better, but I’ve reached a plateau and don’t see this fully going away anytime soon. [the Ambien only temporarily made it worse so that’s not the issue]. I talked to my mom about it some and she suggested I go see a counselor for help, but here’s the kicker, I’ve been to 3 already. The first one told me I was just trying to figure out who I was as a young adult [not the issue], the second told me to meditate it away, and the third literally told me to suck it up and that I didn’t need help. The level of help that these individuals ave offered is absolutely unacceptable and in no way helpful. In short every counselor I’ve seen in Oklahoma is absolutely terrible. Hopefully things will continue to improve through the help of others around me and sheer willpower. Never-the-less we move forward.